My sweet and precious baby boy Elijah Jonathan Noel.

My heart is in anguish for we wish you were here… but for our own good, you’re not. 

If there was the slightest possibility that I could turn back the hands of time and bond with you more I would take advantage of each and every opportunity. But for my own good, I can’t. 

I often imagine what your personality is like. I kind of have an idea, but for my own good, I won’t get to see it. 

I’ve often envisioned tossing a football with you back and forth. But for my own good, that experience will not happen. 

I prayed long and hard, pleading for God to keep you in your first home with your Mommy. But for our own good, God saw fit to take you home to be with him. 

For our own good, we are left with a deep hole in our hearts wishing that our sweet and precious Baby boy Elijah was still with us. 

And by God’s goodness and sovereignty, you were named Elijah, “God is Yahweh” and Jonathan, “God has given.” 

Although the remainder of our days will consist of much lamenting, your existence and your absence are a gift from a good and loving God and this I know by faith in his promises that “God causes all things to work together for the good to those that love God and are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

All that He does is good.

Until we see you again and as we go forward resting in the goodness of God who is ever-present with us, know that Mommy and Daddy love you very much both now and always!